Still Here,
But Gone
(2022)

My Opa was a hobbyist photographer/videographer, but made his money as a machinery business owner. I spent months digitizing his thousands of photos and Super8 films after he passed.

Here is my first collaboration with my Opa, titled 𝙎𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙃𝙚𝙧𝙚, 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙂𝙤𝙣𝙚.
Music by The Bright Light Social Hour, “Slipstream”.

This video is a piece of my psyche. My anxiety, my joy, my sensuality, my unwavering desire to look deeper into myself. This video is my too-late-realized need to connect more with my family. I unfortunately never got to talk to my Opa about his photography and videography. We talked mostly about business and career planning. I am so thankful for his influence on me.

The Super8 footage projected over me was shot by Ulrich Both in various places I hope to travel. Some are: Mallorca, Mexico, Morocco, Madrid, Hawaii, Arizona. There’s also footage of my dad parasailing & surfing in Ocean City, NJ, as well as the German-American Stueben Parade, and some home movies from Christmas, 1972.

Thanks for watching.